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keepersouha ([personal profile] keepersouha) wrote2013-05-05 11:43 pm

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... This is a little troublesome.

I had a sorta of... Odd dream, but I woke up with an XYZ card with me. "Hiita the Hellfire Summoner". Mm...

...

[Private to Shiyoko]

... Ah, are you alright...?

[personal profile] becomeanwarrior 2013-05-06 04:47 am (UTC)(link)
Seems like everyone's been having weird dreams of late.

...but you got a card out of it? That's odd.

[personal profile] becomeanwarrior 2013-05-06 04:49 am (UTC)(link)
What was it about? I'm more than a bit curious.

[Private to Souha]

[personal profile] becomeanwarrior 2013-05-06 04:59 am (UTC)(link)
I ask mostly because I think I had a similar dream, although I didn't get a card out of it.

Hiita meditating at a crossroads, right?
blackrthanblack: (Man Hangovers)

[Private to Souha]

[personal profile] blackrthanblack 2013-05-06 06:04 am (UTC)(link)
... probably not.
blackrthanblack: (Man Hangovers)

Re: [Private to Souha]

[personal profile] blackrthanblack 2013-05-06 06:24 am (UTC)(link)
... Yeah.

I do.

... I'm kind of a mess, aren't I?
blackrthanblack: (Huh What)

Re: [Private to Souha]

[personal profile] blackrthanblack 2013-05-06 09:14 am (UTC)(link)
... I wouldn't mind. Outside our homes?

... And what I said was. Kind of true. About how I feel.
Edited 2013-05-06 09:14 (UTC)
blackrthanblack: (Ah; Food)

Re: [Private to Souha]

[personal profile] blackrthanblack 2013-05-06 03:01 pm (UTC)(link)
I'll make sandwiches. Anything in particular you want.

... Deep down, a lot of those feelings are still very much at the heart of me. And. I. Feel bad. I'm failing.
blackrthanblack: (Ah; Food)

Re: [Private to Souha]

[personal profile] blackrthanblack 2013-05-06 03:10 pm (UTC)(link)
Okie day.

... Even after. Those... were the feelings I was born for. I was made as a mask to protect. And... I dunno.
blackrthanblack: (Man Hangovers)

Re: [Private to Souha]

[personal profile] blackrthanblack 2013-05-06 05:03 pm (UTC)(link)
... It was about protecting Shiroko.
blackrthanblack: (Man Hangovers)

Re: [Private to Souha]

[personal profile] blackrthanblack 2013-05-06 05:46 pm (UTC)(link)
i didn't even protect her at da.

...i know, but. i'm not worthy of it.
blackrthanblack: (Man Hangovers)

Re: [Private to Souha]

[personal profile] blackrthanblack 2013-05-06 06:34 pm (UTC)(link)
And I don't deserve family. a husband. children. a life. an existence. i should just be a stereotype, and give up, because i was never able to grow past it...
blackrthanblack: (Man Hangovers)

Re: [Private to Souha]

[personal profile] blackrthanblack 2013-05-07 05:52 am (UTC)(link)
... And if I said I felt envious of you?
blackrthanblack: (Man Hangovers)

Re: [Private to Souha]

[personal profile] blackrthanblack 2013-05-07 06:27 pm (UTC)(link)
I feel envious that you have a purpose of self you likely fulfill, that I am incapable of ever fulfilling and never succeeded in fulfilling.
blackrthanblack: (Huh What)

Re: [Private to Souha]

[personal profile] blackrthanblack 2013-05-07 08:07 pm (UTC)(link)
... What.
blackrthanblack: (Man Hangovers)

Re: [Private to Souha]

[personal profile] blackrthanblack 2013-05-08 04:35 am (UTC)(link)
... So what does that leave us with. A bunch of failures with no purposes. But. I need a purpose.
blackrthanblack: (Man Hangovers)

Re: [Private to Souha]

[personal profile] blackrthanblack 2013-05-08 12:53 pm (UTC)(link)
Slave's dumb. We should get you a better title.

And I dunno, I'm mostly just made up of Shiroko's desires to be a hero/good guy, and fight people that hurt people like how she got hurt.
blackrthanblack: (Man Hangovers)

Re: [Private to Souha]

[personal profile] blackrthanblack 2013-05-08 06:00 pm (UTC)(link)
... What stops me...?

... I feel pathetic protecting them, though... Why do they need me to protect them.
blackrthanblack: (Man Hangovers)

Re: [Private to Souha]

[personal profile] blackrthanblack 2013-05-09 05:46 am (UTC)(link)
... she does need that, doesn't she...?

but why do i feel so useless about it.
blackrthanblack: (Huh What)

Re: [Private to Souha]

[personal profile] blackrthanblack 2013-05-09 05:54 pm (UTC)(link)
But I don't love myself.

Re: [Private to Souha]

[personal profile] blackrthanblack 2013-05-09 07:09 pm (UTC)(link)
I like liking myself, it makes me push forward.

... Maybe this would be best to continue at lunch?
Edited 2013-05-09 19:10 (UTC)

Re: [Private to Souha]

[personal profile] blackrthanblack 2013-05-10 05:03 pm (UTC)(link)
k.

[personal profile] i_like_red 2013-05-06 04:49 pm (UTC)(link)
I had a weird dream about a week or two ago and I woke up holding a card that had the word "Dreamland" on it. Wasn't a duel monsters card though.

[personal profile] i_like_red 2013-05-06 08:07 pm (UTC)(link)
I really don't know. That shouldn't be possible, but it is...

[personal profile] i_like_red 2013-05-07 06:45 pm (UTC)(link)
Hmm, yeah, definitely sounds like someone is manipulating dreams. Doesn't sound anything like the previous times dreams have been messed with either...

I'll have to keep an eye on this.

[personal profile] i_like_red 2013-05-07 08:38 pm (UTC)(link)
Yeah, there have been a few other times where dream manipulation has happened.

Hm, well, if you remember anything important, let me know.