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[keepersouha]

You know, I'm wondering why I'm not freaking out about this.

But I seem to have my side injured and my body aching.

And yet I can't place how or why.

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[Private to Souha]

[whitrthanwhite.livejournal.com]

Pretty much sounds like Noriko. Nothing she did as a kid ever made much of any sense other then "Rich girl can do whatever she wants".

... And I'm fairly sure if I get something else inside of me, I'll just snap from overclocking.

Re: [Private to Souha]

[keepersouha.livejournal.com]

Probably why she's even doing any of this, then.

I don't even know why she has Psychic Lifetrancer essence in the first place...

Re: [Private to Souha]

[whitrthanwhite.livejournal.com]

Probably. I don't think she technically ever grew up other than physically.

... Nor do I. I think that's something to investigate.

Re: [Private to Souha]

[keepersouha.livejournal.com]

... Probably at a later time. I know how any continued conversation is probably going to go, anyway.

Re: [Private to Souha]

[whitrthanwhite.livejournal.com]

Probably with you female and a 3rd personality.

Re: [Private to Souha]

[keepersouha.livejournal.com]

Which is what I definitely want to avoid. I already have enough trouble with just the one I have now. I don't need anything else.

... Or to be a girl. I guess.

Re: [Private to Souha]

[whitrthanwhite.livejournal.com]

Personally I think you're rather cute as a girl.

Re: [Private to Souha]

[keepersouha.livejournal.com]

I really don't know how to take that.

Re: [Private to Souha]

[whitrthanwhite.livejournal.com]

Compliment.

Re: [Private to Souha]

[keepersouha.livejournal.com]

Oh, I know it's meant to be taken as a compliment.

But it's more the fact that I'm a guy who's being told they're cute as a girl. As uncertain as I am and how used to this I should be, it's still kinda... Awkward.

Re: [Private to Souha]

[whitrthanwhite.livejournal.com]

Best I can say is turn it from a minus to a positive.

It's what I'm trying to do with my ability to dissociate.

Re: [Private to Souha]

[keepersouha.livejournal.com]

... How could you turn that into... A positive?

Re: [Private to Souha]

[whitrthanwhite.livejournal.com]

It allows me to be a perfect method actor, in theory.

Re: [Private to Souha]

[keepersouha.livejournal.com]

... But isn't that kinda... Dangerous, to use that as?

Re: [Private to Souha]

[whitrthanwhite.livejournal.com]

... Which is why I want to.

I want everyone, including me.

To stop being afraid that I'll vanish if even the slightest arbitrary concept is introduced to me.

Re: [Private to Souha]

[keepersouha.livejournal.com]

... I... Guess I can understand that.

At least you have the gall to even try.

Re: [Private to Souha]

[whitrthanwhite.livejournal.com]

... I have tried... it seems viable, but... I expect the first attempt will upset people.

Though, I'm reluctant trying to create one type of personality.

Re: [Private to Souha]

[keepersouha.livejournal.com]

... Why?

Re: [Private to Souha]

[whitrthanwhite.livejournal.com]

... Because the one personality I know a manager in the Professional Circuit would push me to use would be...

The sort of way I was acting before I broke down and was nearly committed for...

mmm... I should probably tell Shikou about this.

Re: [Private to Souha]

[keepersouha.livejournal.com]

... Well, I can see why you'd be hesitant, that's certainly true.

... But yes, you should probably tell him.

Re: [Private to Souha]

[whitrthanwhite.livejournal.com]

... So if I act in a way that you feel... upset about, I apologize.

... I think I shall.

Re: [Private to Souha]

[keepersouha.livejournal.com]

It's noted for the future. Hopefully.