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You know, I really wish sometimes that I didn't suddenly remember stuff just because of seeing a name.

I also wish that I didn't feel like hitting myself whenever I think that.

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Souha, Noriko has about as much chance of dying as I do. Which is to say, we get 'slain', then come back in a month or two. Worst case.

And between Noriko and I, there's pretty much no disease on Earth and probably not in the 12 dimensions that couldn't get cured.

So stop being stupid.

... Even then, now I got something else to worry about.

Namely the whole fact that you two are probably going to never die.

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How is that something to worry about?

The fact that you'll both outlive my lifespan.

And that I hold no intentions on allowing anyone to increase that for myself, if that were at all possible.

...why not?

I mean, the longer you live, the more you could learn.

Because I'd rather not go through the feeling of everyone else I care about growing old and dying around me.

I'm not foolish. An increased lifespan isn't all positives. Sure, I could learn more, but I'd probably just as likely go crazier from the results of it. Either out of boredom, grief, or unable to attain any sort of peace.

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... You'd honestly be surprised about how much I've thought about this.

One thing you haven't thought about is that Noriko and I don't get a choice in the matter, so either you accept the deaths of some of those who care for you, or you take yourself away from those who will stay behind.

I know that either of you probably wouldn't have a choice in the matter.

But I want to at least have the illusion that I do for once, with either of you.

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