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[keepersouha]

You know, I really wish sometimes that I didn't suddenly remember stuff just because of seeing a name.

I also wish that I didn't feel like hitting myself whenever I think that.

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[whitrthanwhite.livejournal.com]

Hrm? Whose name?

[keepersouha.livejournal.com]

... Just a name that I saw in a post that happened a couple days ago. I don't really feel like saying it.

[whitrthanwhite.livejournal.com]

Then I am afraid I can't talk to you on the subject.

[keepersouha.livejournal.com]

Well, it's either that or I get pissed off again about it.

Because whenever I remember what happened I want to set a certain someone on fire and Sekuta would probably kill me if I did.

[whitrthanwhite.livejournal.com]

... I don't see what could of happened that would be that bad with you.

...

[keepersouha.livejournal.com]

It involves me being a moron for trying to make amends with someone I completely despise.

Said person I completely despise is Sekuta's lover, so it's easy to say that he'd probably freeze me for it.

[whitrthanwhite.livejournal.com]

... Ah.

Sounds troublesome.

[keepersouha.livejournal.com]

Just a bit, yes.

I keep on wanting to try to forget what happened, but then it tends to slap me in the face when I don't expect it.

[whitrthanwhite.livejournal.com]

Is it really that much trouble?

[pureplainpatron.livejournal.com]

About all I tend to remember is the various people that have up and vanished.

It's kind of hard to make any progress with people when half of them seem to enter the witness protection program.

...

And I imagine that some people have unflattering things that they'd say it must mean about me.

[keepersouha.livejournal.com]

At least you haven't had someone and half your head be a direct cause into someone vanishing.

... How many people have you known that end up vanishing on you, though?

[pureplainpatron.livejournal.com]

...debatable.

...quite a few. There was this one odd girl who acted like a dog... Anzuru I think. Jean ended up leaving, and eventually vanished. Her sister had a personality that I was rather fond of that ultimately vanished. Yasu seemed to vanish into the ether. Another odd girl, Benihime, lived with me for a little while, but disappeared.

Then there are some I didn't know so well... like Kimiko.

There's probably others, but those come to mind.

[keepersouha.livejournal.com]

Probably so.

... So that's around... Six named. ... Though I guess one shouldn't really be surprised with this kind of place. Maybe they actually did enter into a witness protection program.

... I do honestly wonder what happened to Jean, though.

[pureplainpatron.livejournal.com]

Oh, I forgot Mali and Ixalm... though I do have a rough idea where they went, so it's not so much vanishing.

There's several possibilities, but it could just be that she finally had her fill with 'adventure', and decided to go someplace quieter. Not unlike the other version(s) of her.

Still, what's your 'big regret'? Or do I even need to ask?

[keepersouha.livejournal.com]

... My regret is that I was foolish enough to try to make amends with someone and it ended up making me lose someone I care about.

And that later on I end up seeing them and they completely despise me, right after I felt like I had moved on enough to get on with my own life.

[pureplainpatron.livejournal.com]

...so I could probably guess who you're talking about then.

I gotta say, though, you have the worst luck with that. Though, I guess you're with Noriko now, so it's definitely a matter of opinion, isn't it?

[keepersouha.livejournal.com]

Noriko is a bit of a mixed bag about that. I definitely care about her, but sometimes I wonder what she's trying to do half the time.

... And it doesn't really remove the constant sting of reminder.

[thefifthmonarch.livejournal.com]

Is there a problem with my preferences?

[keepersouha.livejournal.com]

Will you try not to guilt me about it if I answer?

[thefifthmonarch.livejournal.com]

I'm considering it.

[keepersouha.livejournal.com]

... I would like it if you at least accept my opinion on things for once without trying to change my mind.

[thefifthmonarch.livejournal.com]

I can. Under a condition.

[keepersouha.livejournal.com]

... What condition.

[thefifthmonarch.livejournal.com]

Be a moron.

We're in a relationship, I'm always going to argue opinions with you.

[keepersouha.livejournal.com]

I don't mind arguing opinions. I expect that.

What I don't like is you trying to pressure me to change my mind instead.