I've tried to let go of things that I'm angry or upset about, multiple times now. And what do I get?

Spite, seduced, and played for a fool.

I want to not be angry all the time, but it doesn't help that every time I try, something else completely different happens.

By this logic, if I try to let go of my anger against them, then I'm going to wake up one day in the middle of the ocean all because they thought it would be "interesting".