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[keepersouha]

... I don't really like looking at the notes that are left around, but...

Why does one of them warn of me being kidnapped in the near future?

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Re: [Private to Souha]

[keepersouha.livejournal.com]

I want to keep my body, and I don't want to deal with them being around and able to directly harass me.

So yes, it might be hard to do something like that.

Re: [Private to Souha]

[thefifthmonarch.livejournal.com]

Then so inside he stays.

Re: [Private to Souha]

[keepersouha.livejournal.com]

How boring.

Re: [Private to Souha]

[keepersouha.livejournal.com]

I only wish.

Re: [Private to Souha]

[thefifthmonarch.livejournal.com]

You two want something to change with this? Go talk to yourselves like mature adults.

And don't give me that stupid "Change is the evils" hoohah.

Anyways, offer to stay with me is open indefinitely.

Re: [Private to Souha]

[keepersouha.livejournal.com]

We tried that.

They provoked me and you ended up taking their side anyway.

Re: [Private to Souha]

[keepersouha.livejournal.com]

There's no real point, I'm the one who has dominance anyway.

We should just move in since he isn't going to make any consistent choice anyway.

Re: [Private to Souha]

[thefifthmonarch.livejournal.com]

We tried that.

They provoked me and you ended up taking their side anyway.

Make an argument, please, Souha, or I am not going to be very happy. No. Excuses.

Re: [Private to Souha]

[keepersouha.livejournal.com]

Oh, no, that was pretty much what happened.

They got angry at me in our own mind, so you made them unable to get consistently angry at me past vague annoyance.

Re: [Private to Souha]

[keepersouha.livejournal.com]

... Wait, what?

Re: [Private to Souha]

[keepersouha.livejournal.com]

Of course, even vague annoyance can blossom~

Re: [Private to Souha]

[thefifthmonarch.livejournal.com]

Sigh.

Re: [Private to Souha]

[keepersouha.livejournal.com]

What are they talking about.

Re: [Private to Souha]

[thefifthmonarch.livejournal.com]

You were so emotionally high-strung and unstable that if I hadn't tweaked a few things, you'd be one mind right now, and it wouldn't be you, they'd be "Souha".

Re: [Private to Souha]

[keepersouha.livejournal.com]

... Nice to see that my mental state matches what I expected anyway.

Re: [Private to Souha]

[thefifthmonarch.livejournal.com]

What, you'd of rather died?

Re: [Private to Souha]

[keepersouha.livejournal.com]

It's already a given by anyone else that I'm going to. I'm a fake, worthless, and always angry for "no good reason", so why try to hide that anyone considers that to be the route anyway?

Re: [Private to Souha]

[thefifthmonarch.livejournal.com]

Because I love you. And I'd be sad if you died.

Re: [Private to Souha]

[keepersouha.livejournal.com]

... Then why don't you actually show that for once instead of trying to brush my own concerns off like they're nothing.

Re: [Private to Souha]

[thefifthmonarch.livejournal.com]

Because you're so worried on minutia, dear. Most of your concerns seem... frivolous to someone like me. Though, what are your concerns, in a nicely organized list?

Re: [Private to Souha]

[keepersouha.livejournal.com]

I'm concerned that I'm going to end up vanishing because they're more adjusted.

I'm concerned and believe that no will care if that happens.

I'm concerned that they seem to purposely to annoy me or frustrate me, and that people approve of this, even when they try and claim that they aren't fond of them.

I'm concerned they're going to end up getting me killed, because of their own curiosity and flippant attitude.

I'm concerned that even if a situation happened where they'd be "taught a lesson", they'd just shove me out into the front instead for me to take instead.

I'm concerned that even if I try to stop focusing on this it will end up biting back at me like the last times I tried to let go of something.

I keep thinking back to how much easier it was when it was just me and the mask, but instead I have to accept that he's dead because of me and replaced by someone who harasses me indirectly, and nothing but a fraud and fake of him would ever form anymore even if I tried to focus on them instead.

Re: [Private to Souha]

[thefifthmonarch.livejournal.com]

1. They're more adjusted because they don't passive aggressively avoid fixing their own problems like you, and are willing to put in effort into doing things. Even if it is a bit sadistic.

2. I will.

3. Their actions seem more calm and less agitated. People are more willing to deal with someone calm than someone pissy. You shouldn't be having a period.

4. Have they done anything close enough to give this belief backing?

5. I can fix that.

6. Which was?

7. Things change and you mature. Maybe you decided subconsciously it was time to grow up and to stop having things so easily?

Re: [Private to Souha]

[keepersouha.livejournal.com]

1. Since when have they ever actually put in effort to fix our problems?

2. Why is it so hard to believe, then?

3. So because their actions are more "calm", they're free to harass me and thus cause me to act agitated in the first place?

4. Multiple times, I've woken up in the middle of the city, completely lost, and half of the time, someone would end up chasing me down for something I don't remember doing. So yes they've done plenty to give this belief backing.

5. How?

6. The two biggest points were when I first tried to get over my anger at Jouyoku, Ai. She ended up instead trying to seduce me and have sex with me, causing me to lose Theresa.

And then later on when I tried to move on from that fact, Theresa shows up through the door of one of my more trustworthy friend's house, and completely despises me and would probably be more than willing to freeze me to death.

7. If it did, then I hate my mind more than anything else for killing him.

Re: [Private to Souha]

[thefifthmonarch.livejournal.com]

1. They don't have insane canon law they follow.

2. Because you've deluded yourself into thinking everyone hates you.

3. People don't like dealing with grumpy people. It avoids pain, on a genetic and historic level.

4. Have you ever asked them why?

5. I'm me. That should give an idea.

6. Oh joy. You people really do enjoy your asinine proof by example fallacies.

Hasn't she always been better about guys?

7. Not your mind. You. You chose to kill them.

Re: [Private to Souha]

[keepersouha.livejournal.com]

1. ... What?

2. Well no one tends to show otherwise, except for Sekuta, and even he acts unsatisfied with me, too. ... at least, whenever I'm a guy.

3. I'd rather they at least try to make it so I'm not grumpy all the time.

4. I've attempted. The answer I've gotten was "because it was fun."

5. ... mrgh...

6. They're just the two biggest points.

I was actually helping that before the first big thing happened. And then she was told off by the female one.

7. I'd never choose to kill them myself-- besides, it's not like I have any control over who stays and who doesn't. I'm as completely fake as the rest of them.